Pain from your various physical, mental, emotional circumstances and conditions can interfere with your ability to carry on. Sharing my experience hopefully may help you also to endure.
The Effect of Pain on Motivation.
Dealing with this chronic pain of ‘severe lumbar stenosis’ has left me with very little, if any, motivation to write or even function. The pain is not only in my lower back area but also in both hips and in both legs, at least down to the knees. Even various ideas for this post seem to easily fade away when these pains appear and then diminish, seemingly at will. The chronic fatigue does not help either.
A recent discussion with one of my doctors (my urologist in this case) about what I am going through led around to what I am experiencing, especially my chronic tiredness. This discussion elicited this comment from him. He said that ‘my chronic fatigue and tiredness is no doubt due to my body’s reaction to dealing with my constant pain. The body only can take so much without needing to rest.’
So, where does all that leave me? Since my clear thinking ability is effected, and my motivations are limited, I can only do my musings “in the moment.” As I am able to I will write and comment and share my musings here when a let up occurs. Otherwise I seem to only rest and suffer in silence.
Other Sources of Pain
Not only do I seem to have to contend with the personal physical, mental, and emotional pain from my present circumstances, the outside world continues to provide an enormous amount of disquieting and painful situations to effect my ability to muse as I once did.
For example, I am able to drive, so far, and am able to take my wife to the grocery store for provisions. While she is shopping I sit there in the car and observe the people going back and forth into the supermarket. Wow! And that is an experience in itself. I notice so many people, young and old, who just seem to be dragging themselves from their car to the store. So many older people with apparent physical ailments and problems pass by.
One woman I watched seemed to take about at least 20-25 minutes to prepare her husband to leave the car and get into the store. She set up a motorized wheel chair from a rear car platform and get it to him so he could maneuver himself on to it. She returned everything so she could reverse procedure when they returned from the store. This little excursion was probably a treat for her handicapped husband–a real outing of sorts.
And, the handicap parking spots seem to always be occupied, People seem to be doing their best under their personal circumstances, but you can tell it is with quite a struggle for some.
And the Pain Coming from the News
While I am people watching I also listen to the news on the radio and to various “talk radio” shows. What I hear coming from those radio waves is outright disturbing if not outright painful. What am I hearing? You know; you hear it too if you choose to listen to it. Troubles in the world seems to be compounding. From political infighting and especially from the back stabbing of one political party going after the other, and even efforts to demean the president and his agenda.
Then there is the tensions between nations. Also, the economy problems with its effect on the stock market which presently seems to be going into a free fall based on the emotions and reactions of investors and their outlook on current events as well as future events. It is quite painful to hear all that.
And the crime reports add to all that. From domestic disputes and subsequent catastrophes and violence to wanton disregard by criminals for the lives and property of others. Violence seems to be rampant.
A Doctor’s Advice to Curtail Pain
My primary doctor, during a discussion of such painful news, made a strong suggestion to me to just shut off watching or listening to the news all together. He said that I had enough to contend with in dealing with my own painful circumstances. And, I know he is right! I guess it is just a bad habit justified by my excuse of just wanting to know what is going on around me.
I do indeed plan on heeding such good advice. But, as I am limited in my physical abilities, I have been trying to keep my mind as active as possible. So, here we have this ‘musings of the moment’ blog post. I hope it has not been too depressing to listen to my ranting like this.
The Good Advice to Replace this Pain
I am trying, however, to fill my mind with the encouraging words from the bible. Certain passages really do encourage me in light of all the negative elements I listed about. Here are a few listed below.
(Philippians 4:5-7) . . .. 6 Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving, let your petitions be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your mental powers by means of Christ Jesus.
(Proverbs 3:5, 6) 5 Trust in Jehovah with all your heart, And do not rely on your own understanding. 6 In all your ways take notice of him, And he will make your paths straight.
(Revelation 21:1-4) 21 And I saw a new heaven and a new earth; for the former heaven and the former earth had passed away, and the sea is no more. 2 I also saw the holy city, New Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God and prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. 3 With that I heard a loud voice from the throne say: “Look! The tent of God is with mankind, and he will reside with them, and they will be his people. And God himself will be with them. 4 And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.”
(Psalm 37:10, 11) 10 Just a little while longer, and the wicked will be no more; You will look at where they were, And they will not be there. 11 But the meek will possess the earth, And they will find exquisite delight in the abundance of peace.
These bible verses are but a few of the many comforting words found in God’s Word. As I am up to it, I will share more when I can continue to write and post.
Until then, please take care and may you find comfort for your personal pains and tribulations from the “God of All Comfort.”